So i thought i would go off topic, a touch less fashion more feelings, sorry to those whom excepting couture, but ill try to stay Witty at least.
Now I’ve suffered with anxiety for a long time, I’ve always been able to manage it, up until the end of last year, and the start of this, even yesterday i had a full blown panic attack, from being in my hometown’s high street, something that has happened twice last year, before I’ve always felt safe and calm.
ive found when i Dress down,no make up Etc, im still glared at,but I Notice it More, the “armour”( as i call It ) of Fashion Isnt There to give me Confidence, I Guess Ill always be a person, People look At /talk About, not in a big headed Way, more im 6ft2 Strong look, guy who Loves a Handbag, i just seem to understand more if dressed up.
Take fashion week, its a few days away,and I’ve planned looks, but whether i wear is another story, I’ve missed a few events of late being to scared to go,and a had a panic in london at the end of last year.
Utterly horrible crying while in the street, not so chic, i don’t like to show emotion, old British thing i guess.
How do others cope? If you suffer I’d love to know.
I spoke with a friend whom ia very big on the scene and suffers badly, good and bad days im told, which i fully agree.
I’ve never wanted too take tablets, i find you lose whom you are, or maybe that’s the point?!.
I’ve learnt a few tricks too help,when feeling stressed or anxious.
Candles, the soft flicker and smell of some seem to help me centre, my friend Laura . sent me one which helped no end, i burnt it daily till it ran out, heartwood candles she’s a doll, definitely will pick up another.
I carry a roller ball from seascape, its a sleep oil (i have insomnia too) but the scent is incredibly relaxing, and feels nice in my hand to hold, rolling on my wrists,when a little stressed helps, close my eyes breath and try and focus.
Breathing silly, as we all do it, but it’s the way in which we do, that makes a difference, trying to breath softly and slowly will help calm you down, when my heart races its a sign I’m starting to freak out.
This is more of a chat, so im happy to take comments and if anyone has ideas, or how they deal with theirs.
And a way to say, forgive the lack of blog/vlog. I want to make the quality rather than to often and neither us would enjoy videos, if I’m not in that head space.
Thank you for spending time with me
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